KIAMS ... A life within life... the bestest moments of my life...

I came here on a day of April. Thought it was just another journey that beckoned. The Infra was cool and the guys I met then were equally good. Then things came in proportions. There I was standing at the gate again unloading my luggage. Saw two senior girls, both were hotties. Went back enjoyed a trip to ooty. Came back to KIAMS with the chocolate boy of our BATCH. The day 1 was super good with senior guys and hostel sessions. Day 2 was better, because I got to see the real hotties of KIAMS at rotunda in the soothing light and whisper of the wind told me this is no journey, this is going to be a life within life. I started to breathe it when the roommates and the coupa mates and floor mates and the batch mates arrived. We thrived, we played, we fought, we laughed, and we loved but never got tired. The anxieties were too many but the arousals were more. The friends or the brothers, the sisters or the girlfriends we found them all. All those times I kept wondering, what would it take to thank the one sitting up on the clouds, that he gave us so much to relish and cherish. These are memoires unheard yet unforgettable. The days kept passing, nights became longer, all those downloaded movies, all those songs collections were just shared to be with each other. The assignments,projects, events all brought the best out of us, not in academia not in lingua not in intellect but in hearts that swayed together for those long hours. Efforts were more than 100%, because of the multiplicity and those moments of brilliance when we would come out with such witty BC’s…

There were adversities, but we stood rock strong together and moved ahead together, for each other and with each other. The movements so synchronised that it felt like birds flying and soaring high up in skies together never to part.


But then the life is such that it shows its largesse not at all times. The truth is, that till we live, this life within the life will remain with all of us. It will be a part of our hearts, our past and will shape our future. This present might not always be there, but it will keep coming to us in various forms and gifts. It was life within this life I have lived to only never to forget the zillion times I felt so complete with you all. This star is fading, it’s a wait and I’m stuck here knowing not where to go, I have got to get out of this present where I want to live forever, it was a dream that it feels like…. A life within life…


The time flies, had heard these words so many times, never knew would ever be able to feel that way, but now that I know it, I equally hate that feeling. It’s like a moron I pray that why can’t I stop these moments from going by. Each passing moment makes me realize my helplessness. For all those times I hurt any of you I regret now that maybe I would never be able to get to ask for forgiveness, for all those times we have cried and laughed and howled together, I am not yet prepared and scared to leave this life, this phase. How would it feel like to wake up tomorrow alone in my bed with out any one by my side or in the next room, makes me shiver... The love will never be lost, the friends never be forgotten, but lets all go back to what was written in stars, the life to happen within this life… cherish it for last few moments, forgive and light the fire forever and ever. I vow to myself to never to let any one of you down because I LOVE you all so much.

Yours

Adi

Where Are We Going?

Where Are We Going?
Written on 15th August 2009

I am an MBA student
Today is Independence Day. I write these words in the wake of great confusion and deliberation.

I just came back from a flag hosting ceremony and an excellent speech by our deputy director Air commodore Krishna Shankar. Its 6:30 in the morning, where most of my batch mates are still at the campus chatting away. I wonder what they are talking about. Some in groups are contemplating on placements, some on coming classes, some on girls and other on festivals and events. No group I heard talking about THE NATION. Our director comes up to me and wishes me happy Independence Day. I feel as if somebody has come and chosen me to write this.

Life is truly a rat race now. We all keep running towards our first Honda, our first Platinum credit card, our insurmountable bank balance; what about the child sitting hungry on the street in want of food for last so many days? Was director Rajkumar Hirani, in MUNNABHAI, in want of pun depicting India as poor, when he used the dialogue “Hungry people, poor people”; IS INDIA REALLY THAT?

In the times like these, what does independence means to any of us is what I ponder upon. I realize almost all of us have lost the sanctity to salute the nation’s best. We all are engrossed in our crises and feel like, the companies not recruiting us are the bunch of few engrez we all are fighting against, and knowledge of all the top companies, their top line growths, their bottom line falls and their denominator management, that’s all that matters to us.

For many of us corporate (suited in Gucci’s and Allen Solly’s), it is one of the best days this time around, because it extended our weekend, by virtue of we will catch up maybe a flick at a multiplex or enjoy the bed.

I wonder in this haven’t we lost touch with our basics. People go to any lengths understanding the whole international market, their organization's structures, how they have achieved great feats to become such successful conglomerates. We see these company’s names feature in Forbes and their leaders like Richard Branson or Steve Jobs, admire them idealize them and try to emulate their leadership styles in even in our role plays in HR classes. Is this what an INDIAN CEO would be like?

Hands down I give the Best entrepreneur, Best Manager and Best Leader of the contemporary era to none other than Mr. M.K. Gandhi. His leadership traits can teach you a lesson which no book on self-sufficing autobiographies of those CEO’s can teach you.

Try to emulate those who found your root,
Thou can’t win the world just on the exploits of offshore
Thy competencies lie within in your own hood

It’s all about that manifestation. I don’t know in demography of 110 crore where around 60% are youth, how many would have turned up to keep a hand on their heart and let their voices be resounded upon the flag we should pride the most. That’s when I ask myself and to the youth in the corporate and MBA (my so called Target segment), how many times you have dreamt of a company at the top of list in Forbes. Belongingness you feel everyday to your MNC job and satisfaction you derive from it, is the manifestation external? Is it the astronomical amount in your bank account you aspire to have drives you to work every day?

What about the inner voice, the manifestation that could come from within?

There is always that patriotic little Indian lying in their waiting to bustle out. During those cricket matches, especially when playing against likes of Australia (the country which incidentally reminds me of Virgin, Telstra) we see ourselves jump, cheer and bellow for THE TEAM INDIA!!

Why isn't there an internal motivation and manifestation, when we go to our work?
Nation lacks entrepreneurs, it has infrastructural bottlenecks, low Public Private Participation, and ironically so, each and every MBA student (almost 40000 of whom pass out every year from this nation’s economy) have analyzed and arrived at these conclusions. So what are we doing about it?

It’s not a question I pose to the world of young corporate or Indian youth; it’s something that I ask myself!

I am Back

After a long Hiatus from blogging... am looking at the trend and am being forced back into the moronish activity of posting my thoughts on BLOGSPOT yet again.
I have come quite a long way from august 2006(when i brought this baby in the world of freaks and left it to grow on its own- which never can happen i know)...
the only problem that i hve face since is getting something granduer strted for myslf... completed graduation... worked or assed for sometime... tried to get into a bschool for MBA...
landed at KIAMS..
lot has been learnt and unleearnt since...
will keep posting it as the time flies...
and yes i am putting up a new pic too..

so i'm global now

yessir now i finally have a global identity...i have my own blog on web
for a start i wud luv to tell people that i'm not going to write any crap about mysef in the matter of time...as i feel there are things more important than to talk about oneself so egotisticaly...
so people there have been many topics over period many hot shot topics on rrise since a long time now....which will affect a youngster like me...so i'm going to discuss them thoroughly with myself on my own blog